thE End is thE bEginning

OK sO i'm still trying tO dEtErminE thE dirEctiOn i wAnnA tAkE with tElling.
fOr nOw yOU gOt mE On sOmE intrOspEctivE shit. i'm On A city-bOUnd trAin wAtching trEEs, hOUsEs, OcEAns And cliff-fAcEs mElt intO A pAssing blUr Of cOlOUr & fOrm. thE hOUr cOmmUtE givEs mE jUst AbOUt EnOUgh timE tO cOllEct my thOUghts & my brEAth bEfOrE my first dAy Of schOOl. UnivErsity thAt is. tOdAy mArks my rEtUrn tO thE wOrld Of AcAdEmiA... nUts nO? bOOks n cOnsciOUsnEss. cOnsciOUsnEss As OppOsEd tO UncOnsciOUsnEss? wEll i'm nOt stUdying phlOsOphy sO lEt's nOt gEt intO thAt.

yEstErdAy i gOt dOwn with An Old friEnd And wE gOt tO tAlking AbOUt lifE & dEAth... And whAt rEAlly mAttErs. A yOUng friEnd Of hErs diEd A wEEk AgO And shE is wOrking thrOUgh it. thE UpsidE wAs thAt thE gUy whO pAssEd wAs stOkEd On his lifE in thE wEEks lEAding Up tO his sUddEn & UnExpEctEd dEAth. hE wAs wOrking On A crUisE bOAt in thE cArribEAn And lOving EvEry minUtE. On this tip wE rEAchEd thE mUtUAl cOnclUsiOn thAt living fOr nOw is thE wAy fOrwArd. i'm AbOUt tO lAUnch mysElf intO A 4-yEAr cOmmitmEnt Of stUdy & sElf-ExplOrAtiOn. dOEs this mEAn i Am living ExclUsivEly fOr my intEndEd End gOAl? this is A trAp i dOn't wAnt tO fAll intO. thE fUtUrE is An AbstrActiOn. it dOEsn't Exist... yEt. And if/whEn it dOEs it wOn't bE thE fUtUrE AnymOrE AnywAys... it will bE nOw. nOt trying tO cOp OUt On sOciAl Or pErsOnAl rEspOnsibility... jUst trying tO bAlAncE EnErgy. sEizE thE dAy! Or sincE my first lEctUrE tOdAy is frEnch 101... s'EmpArEr dE jOUr!